Unconnected.

Well, maybe this is bit more than a self help or something else.

It’s personal dialogue.

I’ve had countless relationships.

Many Many friends been with me.

I tried to forge relationships thinking someone would click, someone would think like I think.

I just hope this poem depicts its true possible thoughts which I have now.

It’s an Extempore type thing.

I had dinners and lunches with you

But, my appetite for intimacy wasn’t there with you.

I don’t know.

Why I couldn’t click with you.

Just our thoughts always ended in a different way.

You’ll always praised for my thinking and my words.

You liked my manners and etiquettes.

But, at the end of day.

We couldn’t connect.

I could make you laugh.

And,

I could also make you stare in my eyes for quite long.

But, still we couldn’t stare at each other’s perspectives.

I know you liked me.

I thought you were good too.

But, how could I compromise with my values.

I know you did realise that I was right.

I thought rightly and deeply.

But, when time came for you to think deeply and practice it diligently.

You ran away.

And, how could I say.

That, I loved you.

When you ran away from those values that I valued the most.

Yes. I could have got a title.

That we’re couples.

But, how long?

How long are disagreements would surface and make us come in reality again.

And,

Tell us on our face that we’re not made for each other.

How late it would be.

Yes, it’s tough for me to leave you.

Maybe I won’t have no one to talk and to go out with.

But, Is loneliness better or False love?

I know that you would remain single and do remember me for whom I was.

Maybe come into another relationship and still see how good I was.

But, it was never about who was superior.

Always about who could connect.

I thought after you.

That someone else would connect but the only thing connected was similarity between you and her.

I don’t know why I think like this.

Why I don’t compromise and stay happy with whatever I get.

But, why should I?

Maybe I would be happy.

If,

Just if you could think the way I think, believe on what I believe and feel like I feel.

But, now.

I’m tired.

Having failed in so many unconnected relations.

I finally want to do something good with my life.

And,

Yes. I will look for someone.

With whom I know how it feels to be connected.

Like Moon and Earth.

Always far but still connected through an invisible force.

The force that no human could ever reckon with


P.S

I don’t know if this makes sense or not.

But, this has been my life.

I have had many relationships.

But, always felt unconnected.

I don’t know who’s strange the world or me.

Image credits : other perspectives.

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  1. Everybody has a role to play, they just come, play and leave. Who’s meant to stay forever would come at the right time.
    And it’s no harm to have a very temporary connection or no connection at all, it’s just the time when you feel connected and the other moment you don’t or they don’t.
    We pass through so much everyday, we meet people who aren’t meant to stay, to give us what exactly we are giving to them. It’s okay not to be connected, but don’t ever let that lil connection affect you whole or your life.’ 🙂

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    1. Yeah, I do yearn for a all round connection, but I think it’s maybe in our human nature to associate, but problem starts when the thinking of partners don’t align. It’s a necessary thing, you’re right these are temporary things but yeah, after many relationships one gets tired and fed up, and stops thinking about these. I had phase like that, but now I’m better off. 😊

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  2. Timing is surely a thing. But I think(It’s just my personal opinion😅)..that Relationships are not a rocket science. When times come, that you have to analyze and think over every thing in that…it’s over already. It becomes fake and toxic.

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  3. I don’t know why does it happen that way. It relates to me a lot, there are times when I go with the flow but in the end I need to disconnect because it hampers my values. You have a beautiful thinking way, you are unique in your own way and it’s okay to be different. Reminds me how you are into Vedanta and flashbacks me to a month ago when I had to read Swami Vivekananda. He was different, a person who was ran away from when he was at the religious meeting at Chicago but his first sentence changed the hearts of people. The poem of yours is portraying exactly what you feel and it is important to attend to it. Not everyone values the same, but you can’t compromise on that can you? You may loose your charm. The point is whatever you experienced will now further reflect in your thinking and it may be stronger and rigid which is always respected. Trust me different has its own pros and cons. Sadness is meant to be to balance life. I am sure you will go only higher until you stick to your values because that what makes you your own sweet person.
    Cheers!

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    1. Hey, long time. Certainly can’t change the way whom I am and have accepted this.
      But, certainly this acceptance came after long struggle and introspection, Well. This post, was like why I didn’t had someone with whom I could align in all dimensions I could, that’s why. But right now I’m not seeking anyone, it’s just some temporary moments, and in one of those moments I wrote this post. 😅😊

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