Well someone asked me something yesterday, (cannot tell you who :p)
“Have you ever kissed a girl? ”
First I got disgusted with the question asked, (I’m straight and I do get attracted to girls :p).
I said,” No” (why should I, as I haven’t met my true love)
Moreover I was relieved that the enquiry didn’t get any further.
Why I got irritated with the question was the fact in the way it was asked and the underlying intention.
Today, things like breakup, boyfriend, patchup, sex, girlfriend and many more things has made the idea of true love so degraded is that I feel very bad.
Now there was another incident which made me believe more in what I believe in.
I usually spend my free time going to New Delhi area, which is green and clean, most importantly the quietness that runs on its roads. So I just went to UPSC( a government commission) , not for some work just to eat at the famous chaat stall besides it. There when I was eating, I noticed a woman standing and waiting for someone.. After sometime a man comes with a single plate of chaat(indian fast food).
The woman smiled and I smiled too, a conversation between them followed which made my outing worth.
The conversation was as follows.
Man: This is tikki(indian fast food), hold it I will bring scooter and will keep on it.
The man keeps the chaat on the seat
Man: You know I took a holiday today, I thought that it was quite a long time that I didn’t take you somewhere. I thought you would like it.
I couldn’t hear what the woman said as she was bit far from me.
Later when there was just one piece left he threw away his spoon and said now you eat.
So this was something which made me happy. That’s why I could remember the each word said.
So, how come I started to believe in this idea of love?
It’s a long story but it’s worth it.
I remember when I was in 3 class, I liked a girl. So I had a small story book named “Heidi”, many of you would remember it. So what I did I took the book, and told my friend to pass the book to her. The girl didn’t look at me and started to read the book, later my friend gave the book to me. There was no response from the girl, I was expecting a Thank you or something but nothing came. I became sad,That’s why I remember this so precisely. :p
So later our sections changed and never met again, so in class 11 I used to go to her section to meet my friend and I got surprised that she is still in same school. (mine school was big so you can get lost :p) Then she smiled at me, and in return I smiled, and this happened a lot of times. But at time I was a typical bad boy, who used to bunk classes even school , hit other students, and indulge in sports. So I never thought of approaching her or talking her, because there was no need. Then we never met. This was one of the phases of child love that we all experience. (The 1st stage got over)
Then I did had 2 close relationships not simultaneously :p with my friends(of course girls) , and the thing was I got confused, both of them in a way liked me and I also liked them but there was something missing there was lack of intimacy, frankness and love. It involved jealousy, ego, selfishness and what not. Moreover they were not any commitment based relationship, thank God they weren’t. In all this experience I wasted my time and energy in stupid things which I could have invested in alot of right things. I regret till now.
Then after so much of pain and discomfort, I promised myself that if this is love then I don’t want to be in love.
At the same time I was in depression (read my first post) and due to failures in my educational life. So I asked myself is this the love which everyone talks about, and after days of pain and thinking I came with my own idea of love. ( 2nd stage got over)
I started to believe in love which was unselfish, in which you can reveal everything to her without being judged negatively, the love which depends upon no condition and expectations, the love which is beyond pleasure and pain. The love which is for the character not the body or any other materialistic thing. I still believe in this love. (finally started to believe – last stage)
Okay this is one aspect of love, now the first question, do you remember? About someone who asked me something, and why I got irritated. :p
So here is the exact answer, today people think that having a relationship or having sex is cool.
I laugh at such people.
Now let’s come to something to an issue like sex(another aspect of love)
I feel sorry for those facebook advertisements and websites which tell that sex is a stress reliever or great mood booster.
This means that all the negative tension that I have in my body, I start to remove in someone’s body whom I love, I’m pretty sure that someone who uses sex to remove stress is someone who doesn’t know what love is.
Moreover watching Porn has also has a negative impact on our minds, because our mind starts to believe that we are making love with our true love. Frankly this was something I experienced and I will be frank in this. When I was in my teens, my friend showed me at once I got attracted to this without being aware of the consequences and it was because of my experiences that I got rid of this. Today Porn is one of those things which is responsible for selfish love or materialistic love.
See act of love or sex, is not a Taboo it is one of the greatest things in the world. It is an act which brings life on earth.
Is there any other act which brings life on earth? This is the very act which can make you God. This is the very act which can give your immense love to the person you love. But today we have reduced this very act to an idea of achievement, pleasure and joke.
So at the end I would like to say.
If you believe in what I believe in.
If you think like I think.
Then stand besides this idea of love and never leave the idea even the whole world decides the idea to be wrong.